A new perspective

Just another day of December in camp where there are super few people around. I was eating noodles alone in the camp canteen when i saw one of my camp buddy, Jonathan, walking over. I was like "Great, and i wanted to be left alone today >_>)

We did chatted for a bit and then he asked me "Eh, why you so sian?". I contemplated for a bit and then asked him "What are you looking forward to nowadays?" He was silent for a few moments and then he replied "Why, i look forward to life as a Singaporean. I'm privileged to have a good education, a stable background and a happy family" He then turned to me and said " You can look forward to your swimming / jogging regime like you have been doing everyday for one year plus. You can look forward to your weight losing goal. You look quite great nowadays, you know" The answer i got from him was something i totally didnt expected at all and realised that i have overlooked the simple blessings in life that i have. True, my family income is deteoriating, my relationship with my parents are at oods, I'm struggling to find the answer to what i want to do after NS (not to mention the sad fact that i'm still sing**) But it could have been worse. My family could have been bankrupt, my parents could have divorced or god knows what could happen *shudder >_<* or something like that. So i guess i hold on tight to that thin little thread of fate and do my best everyday. Maybe my life will change for the better? Whatever it is, i have my own two hands to mould my destiny...

An old friend..

I met fiona, a poly classmate of mine from quite a while back. We didn't had much chance to talk as she was going to her boyfriend's place and was catching a bus. But what i learned from her is that most of the classmates were all attached and one guy, Freddie, was married with a kid!! Wow, ain't that early? Seems like i'm the only one single now.. Sigh >_>

Bad times..

Bad things are sprouting in my life like grass after the rain. My dad's small shipping business has apparently run aground and have shifted back to our own home to cut down on overhead costs as well as rent. As a result, my dad and mum are almost always at home and tensions run high as stress builds up between me and them. I used to see them only at night, which was good as i can do my own work and maybe play some games. Now whenever i'm doing any of my own personal stuff, my dad will come in and nag me and ask me to help them out. Not that i don't want to, but the thing is i'm already tired from the work i get in camp and my daily exercise i do(swim or jog) that i reach home at nine plus. A few games and relaxation and its eleven coming twelve! D'OH MAN! My streak of bad luck is dogging me as ever and i am still... single...lol!

I remember i used to be very mindful of it as many of my friends are getting attached and that when i want to go out, i can't ask them out anymore as they have to accompany their girlfriends. The fact that the increasing number of couples i see whereever i go never fails to bring me mixed emotions. I smile to myself when i see a couple spending time sweetly with each other and yet feel a bitter sting to my heart when i think of myself. Many of my friends always used to say "Your time will come, Shaun". I pretty much sure that its my time on earth will be up more than i ever find my significant other. Sure, there are some girl friends that told me to treasure this time when i'm still single as i will miss it when it's gone. Frankly i never been in a relationship before so i cannot say i understand that. That and a thousand other lines of pity / guidance / whatever that i am so damn bloody sick of hearing about. For now, i guess i just hold on to whatever i have. What matters the most to me now is my iPod which i absolutely cannot live without and also my weight losing goal. Its the only reason that i live on with a vengeance, the thing i wake up to everyday to go to camp... My social life is next to zero (maybe zero already, who knows.. lol)

There are a lot of other stuff that are a constant bother in my life but what i mentioned are the major concerns i have in my life so far. Guess i got to be strong and tide all these over, cos life still goes on after all. If i don't be strong and help myself, who will?

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